Here’s the thing…..

Here’s the thing…..life is about choices. Really. It is.

Most days, I choose to get out of bed and play off this incredible cruel joke of living without my daughter.  I choose to.  Nobody forces me to.  I just do it.

Some days I choose to let miserable people invade my thoughts.  Seems silly, why would anyone choose to let miserable people invade their thoughts?? Well, that’s what you are doing when you let bullshit into your life.

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So today?? I am CHOOSING to not let my thoughts and day be invaded by things that don’t matter.  Things that are NOT in my control.  Because the only thing that you can control is yourself and your choices. Some people do not have very good self control…..I have been known to occasionally be one of those people. But, even when I am at my worst….I still have choices.  Always have.

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So what does all this mean really??? I don’t want to be the “victim” of childhood cancer. It has already stole so much from me and my family.  I don’t want to be just another grieving mother who is so hypersensitive to everything around her. Always in a funk.  Often angry. And so very, very sad.

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I want to choose to change my thinking.  Because, whatever is going on in my mind, is what I am attracting to myself.  Simple law of attraction. I want to live a life of purpose.  Make a difference.  Have my life make a difference…..to someone.  Anyone really.  Stop doubting…..have more faith.

 

Live more like Zay.  That’s it.  I want to be more like Zay.

Miss you baby girl.

 

One comment

  1. Sue · August 25, 2016

    I’m so sorry for the loss of your precious daughter. No parent should ever have to experience that kind of loss. You are making a difference. Just now, to me, and to so many others. Just like Zayla did. Peace to you and your family.

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