A Letter to you……

Dear Zayla…..

Woke up this morning to your sissy cutting and prepping the quilt she is making.  This one is of your favorite t-shirts.  She actually is going to make three…..one for each of us girls.  I picked my favorite shirts that you would wear…..


I only woke a couple times last night…..still try to wish myself back to sleep and to dream of you.  It didn’t happen….or if it did, I don’t remember.  Either way, it sucks. 

Today is September 1st…..your favorite day!!  You would look forward to this day.  Always making your gold ribbons and sharing them at school….or trying to sell them to raise money for research.  I loved your passion….it’s what pushes me everyday.  Was contacted twice yesterday about two local childhood cancer events.  You would be so proud!!  People are listening….not only are they aware, but they are doing something!!!  The Herscher High School volleyball team are having a Go Gold event October 4th.  You know that is because of you my sweet child……your impact. Your sweet sweet smile and the way you changed lives.  Including mine.  And the Herscher kids football league is also hosting a fundraiser event for childhood cancer.  


So we push on…..because like the song verse by  Lord Huron states, “What good is living the life you’ve been given if all you do is stand in one place?”  Keep moving forward.  

I have the next six days off work…..sure wish you were here to help me prepare for our 1st Annual Bag Tourney.  I can see you making your cake pops….or helping me cut vegetables….or yelling at your sisters for not helping  more.  Ugh.  Can I just have the chaos back???  Tired of the loneliness…..

Love you baby girl.

Miss you terribly.