I cried today….

I cried today……And not just my normal cry.  

It was the ugly cry.  

Which may seem weird…..I mean, how can something so simple as seeing the headstone spray paint markings of my daughter’s grave practically bring me to my knees??? 

It only took me over a year to finally order the headstone.  

It just seems so final.  

But then, again.  It is so final.  

This hollow feeling in my heart has not improved over the last 16 months.  In fact, at times I feel like it is weighted down with memories that my soul would love to return to.  

Damn I miss that kid.